If not now, then when?
Quoting the slogan of Hillel, the Jewish organization for college students, because for the life of me I can’t figure out what my problem is. Wei sent me this link to a contest that Away.com is sponsoring. I looked at the damn page for nearly half an hour. All I have to do is write 100 words about how I travel adventurously, or an adventurous experience that I’ve had. One hundred measly words. But I’m afraid. Of what, I have no idea. I mean, there’s absolutely nothing riding on this, whatsoever. If they like my 100 words, I win a book and I can write the full story on Away.com’s blog. If I don’t win…absolutely nothing happens whatsoever. They are going to read & grade my entry, and that’s it. There is no time investment. There’s no money investment. There’s not even a risk of anyone finding out my real name.
This fear of whatever is holding me back not only for this silly little contest, but with NaNoWriMo and also Elance, which is one of the best chances I have of making money until I get another job. I don’t know what the deal is. I’ve been trying to write 10,000 words a day for NaNo for the past week; for the most part I haven’t even bothered to open the damn word doc. I’m at a point I don’t like, but instead of skipping it I get stuck. It’s frustrating.
And now, if i want to win, I need at least 15,000 words on Friday, Saturday and Sunday. My only writing goal tomorrow is to write 100 words for the damn Away.com blog. Then on to 15K Friday. If I get to at least 10K on Friday, I’m going to write a sample article about something so I can use up my 3 connects on Elance before the end of the month, and bid on new projects next month. Meanwhile, I’m still out of work….
